i didn't know what to say.

"i didn't know what to say
merry christmas baby,

merry christmas baby,

merry christmas..."
12.23.95- jimmy eat world.

It's weird. in 8 days i'll be getting on a plane, and going home. i knew that the next few days weren't gonna be easy. i knew that. i knew, that deep down, being so far from home, and every stinking holiday tradition was going to suck. i knew that i was going to do all i could to make the best of it and not mope, like i did for thanksgiving. unfortunately, that hasn't worked so far.
it has a lot to do with a lot of things. thanksgiving, i had just seen my family, and mom and dad were on a cruise, greg and erlinda were just getting back from their honeymoon and KP was KP. but i didn't really talk to all of them. tonight i did that. i talked to my entire family, and realized just how much i miss them and how much i wish i was sitting at home with our friends and family, but can't be.

this is coming off whiny to me, so i'm gonna end it with this, I'm sure at some point, i'll stop being homesick and realize how much of a growing experience christmas 2009 was for me, for now though, i don't know what to say,
except,
merry christmas.