even if it means i had to miss you.

I'm proud as hell of myself for once.
i've never been one to admit that legitimately.
but i am. that's something i've gained.

and i'm happy about that.
even if it means i had to miss you*

i've lost around 60 pounds.

i've started taking care of myself.
eating right and working out.

and i'm happy about that.
even if it means i had to miss you.

it hasn't been easy.

a lot of days have been a battle.

i've made it through, and soldiered on.

and i'm happy about that
even if it means i had to miss you.

i know you missed me back home.
and i missed you too.
but i learned i can make it.
and i'm happy about that,
even if it means i had to miss you.

i've done a lot of things.
i've seen a lot of stuff.
i've been a lot of places
and i'm happy about that,

even if it means i had to miss you.

in 3 weeks i'll be done

i'll be back with my friends, and home with my family
but i've come so far, i'm so proud of myself.
and i'm happy about that,

even if it means i had to miss you.

*the title and phrase came from a conversation i had with bryan a few days ago. it's saved in my drafts so i can look at it over and over. that's how important it is to me.