be patient, i am getting to the point.

"I can't remember when the earth turned slowly
So I just waited with the lights turned out again
I lost my place but I can't stop this story
I've found my way, but until then
I'm only spinning
Spin beneath the rooftop
Hold on, wait until the room stops
Spinning"

it would be nice if the earth would turn slowly. at this point in a week i will be in Orlando Fl, well in all honestly i'll probably be asleep in a hotel in Orlando, but the point is i'll be in Orlando. but first, i've got another 6 days in albuquerque. part of me wishes i was just going to Orlando tomorrow. but the other part of me knows i'm nowhere near ready. i'm not even currently wearing pants. (Edit: moments after i wrote that, i put on pants to work on laundry, but felt it was important to convey my lack of readiness.) but here's the thing. i'm ready. maybe not fully, but i'm ready. it's amazing. after the year i had, it'll be good to go away. it'll be good to leave familiar in the rear view mirror, or i guess, more accurately, down on the ground (since i'll be flying, not driving) and strike out toward new, toward exciting, toward different.

who knows what will happen. i don't. maybe that's what i'm so excited about. brand new. it's like the first day of school. i know i keep making that simile. but it is.

it'd be easy to sink,
but i think i'm ready to swim.