the semester that could have been.

"and you like the way this story goes
cause the sun still burns the shadows out
and there's nothin to complain about now.

and if this is our destiny i'd treasure the fact,
i'd give you what's left of me if i held back
but i don't need a soul
no i don't need a soul to hold."
i don't need a soul, relient k

too many times things change before we get the chance to really see them through. things come up, events shift our perspectives, we get busy. a year ago, the course i thought i was running was slammed into by life. Suddenly, a whole new road opened up. a new path. a journey. an escape. an adventure. whatever you want to call it.

"and if the nightmare ever does unfold, perspective is a lovely hand to hold."
part of it - relient k

i think part of the reason i left was to gain some perspective. to escape what i'd grown used to, grown tired of. to renew the vigor i had once felt. florida delivered on that. it made me miss what i'd left, and re-consider what once disappeared.

"hangin on, here until i'm gone, right where i belong, just hangin on"
february stars, foo fighters

now, i find myself a year removed from that change of plans. right back where i was from the start. living in the semester that could have been, but wasn't meant to be. i can't however, forget the past year. it wouldn't be fair to me and everything that happened. for now, i'll just sit here and just hang on.